i never thought i’d say this but i miss fort pitt so much
I hate thinking that you’ve tried to end it all and I wasn’t there to save you
god I hate you so much and the only real reason is because he stILL THINKS YOU’RE BETTER THAN ME NO MATTER HOW MUCH HE DENIES IT AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
I WANT TO BE THE ONLY ONE HE WANTS AND THE ONLY ONE HE EVER WILL WANT SO WILL YOU PLEASE JUST FUCK OFF AND LEAVE US ALONE.
the other day my boyfriend was drunk and i was sat on the floor in his garden and he was laying with his head in my lap and we were with his sister and her friend and no one had spoken for a while and he just said ‘i could die here’ and i swear i’ve never felt more love for anyone in a single moment than i did when he said that
i hate my body but that doesnt stop me from consuming 5 slices of toast half a pizza a chocolate bar a load of biscuits 3 lil packets of those cadbury animals some fucking fried ham and a croissant in the space of one afternoon
blunt responses to meaningful things are th e fuckin g worst
i just told you i think you’re gr8 and deserve the best and wished you good luck in your life and told you that i’ll be here for you whenever
you cant just say ‘er thanks?? i appreciate it’ considering we’ve been best friends for four fucking years but whatever
im scared of you and i dont know why
but the other night you said it looked like the hills were on fire and you told me you’d never seen a dark so bright
i just forget that you’re a complete abyss of a person and i know almost nothing about you
you’d never guess that i’d known you for over 6 months because i dont even know your dads name
i wish you were more comfortable talking about things because i still feel as though i cant compare, or as though i’ve changed from being the girl you fell in love with, the one with the crazy thoughts and spring in her step, the girl that made you confused and scared and astounded and happy, i want to still be that for you and knowing that you dont fall for me every day anymore makes me sad
I never used to want to have a child but now I do and I can’t wait to be settled down with Christopher and I want to have his baby and I want to spend my life with him and I haven’t told anyone this before but I am so excited and so happy
